After a two-month hiatus, I’m back with the most vulnerable episode yet - recorded the week I turn 50.
I’ve been grappling with what it means to celebrate sober & how easily my unexamined plans could lead me to relapse.
Spoiler alert: Sometimes surrender looks like canceling your own birthday party.
This week’s episode is not audio, it’s a video.
In it, I share
Why I disappeared for two months
A pattern I keep repeating
A dream I keep chasing
A Problem I keep creating
And a solution I keep resisting
I Quit My Job
But not before learning
Who I am
Where I belong
Why it matters
How I prefer to earn income
What’s next
Plus, more burnout truths.
🔒 Behind the Paywall: A Journaling Exercise
The Death of An Ideal
The gap between who you thought you’d be by now and who you actually are isn’t evidence of failure, it’s the doorway to freedom.
In this exclusive journaling guide, I walk you through the exact practice that helped me surrender the “fab at 50” fantasy & find peace with my actual life.
This isn’t about positive thinking or gratitude lists, it’s about getting brutally honest about the ideal you’ve been chasing, naming the wound underneath and finally letting it die so something real can be born.
What you’ll get:
7 powerful prompts that take you from shame to surrender
Permission to grieve what never was (and discover what actually is)
A pathway out of the “escape artist” cycle I describe in the episode
The exact questions that helped me choose sobriety over performance at my own birthday
This is deep work. The kind that changes how you move through the world.
If you’re tired of measuring yourself against an impossible standard, this practice will set you free.
P.s.
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